meeting H

haha, don't you love my title. :) anyway, today i was supposed to meet H but ended up not. i'm not too upset though. he texted me this morning and said that he was on the way to the doctor's office. i asked why and he said that he was feeling worse than before (background- he hasn't felt good for about a month and started coughing and sneezing blood). i felt bad for him but didn't say anything about calling the "meeting" off. i then talked to lauren and she asked if he had said anything about today and i told her no and she said to mention something to him, therefore i did. when i asked him he said he really didn't feel good at all and would rather postpone it until a later time. that was totally fine with me because i want to meet the real H not the sick H. anyway, all that to say, we didn't meet today which was a bummer but he has been super sweet about it and said that we can do it on friday or saturday and that if lauren and kris can't come it can just be me and him. that makes me super duper nervous because i have never done this before and the thought terrifies me a little. but in a good way. :) anyway, i'll update when i know more. i can't wait to meet him. but honestly i'm not going into expecting anything because i don't want to be upset if we don't click and if we do click it will be that much more exciting. :) pray for me and my nervous self. pray that i don't sweat a flood. hah!