meeting H

haha, don't you love my title. :) anyway, today i was supposed to meet H but ended up not. i'm not too upset though. he texted me this morning and said that he was on the way to the doctor's office. i asked why and he said that he was feeling worse than before (background- he hasn't felt good for about a month and started coughing and sneezing blood). i felt bad for him but didn't say anything about calling the "meeting" off. i then talked to lauren and she asked if he had said anything about today and i told her no and she said to mention something to him, therefore i did. when i asked him he said he really didn't feel good at all and would rather postpone it until a later time. that was totally fine with me because i want to meet the real H not the sick H. anyway, all that to say, we didn't meet today which was a bummer but he has been super sweet about it and said that we can do it on friday or saturday and that if lauren and kris can't come it can just be me and him. that makes me super duper nervous because i have never done this before and the thought terrifies me a little. but in a good way. :) anyway, i'll update when i know more. i can't wait to meet him. but honestly i'm not going into expecting anything because i don't want to be upset if we don't click and if we do click it will be that much more exciting. :) pray for me and my nervous self. pray that i don't sweat a flood. hah!

lots of happenings

Lots has been going on in my life this week since Wednesday night.

First school. Because it's what I try and focus on the most. I had an anatomy test today. The last one before the final. PRAISE JESUS! It was supposed to be the hardest one of the semesterand boy if it wasn't. It took me 45 out of the 50 minutes I had to take it, normally, I don't stay in classes taking the tests for that long. This scares me and the fact that I talked to Lauren afterwards and was still so unsure about how I did on some of the questions. I even studied my tail off for this, like a whole weeks worth of studing, even went to study groups and everything. I just pray I made a 72 or higher because I could get a B in the class with that. Anyway, I'm so burnt out on anatomy, it's not even interesting anymore. Well it is but not when I have to study it all the time. It is what it is.

Onto the more interesting stuff and what I will want to look back at and read when I am old and wrinkly. Kris (Laur's boyfriend) has this friend that he went to high school with and somehow in one of their conversations girlfriends came up. We will call him H, H asked Kris if he knew of anyone that was single because he was looking. And Kris told him about me, how special, bahaha! Wednesday night Lauren told me to check my facebook and see if I had a friend request and I looked at her like "what are you up to?" She said "Kris wants you to see and if so click accept!" I got on and H had added me and I clicked accept and almost immediately he messaged me. We talked for a whole hour, thats alot for not knowing someone and just randomly holding a conversation, for me. At the end we exchanged numbers and Thursday he texted me. I can't lie,i it made me smile. :) But we texted all day yesterday and have been texting a lot today. I'm ready to meet him, but I want to meet him on like a double date with Lauren and Kris. To hopefully help out in the akward times. I'll keep this posted on what happens.

Just thought I should add, I would have never thought this would have happened now.

...And I'm not proofing this, maybe I will later. :)

Updated Playlist

I put up some new songs on the blog playlist. Yay! I love music, especially music that makes me think of certain things/memories and/or inspires me. Taylor Swift, I am in love with her new CD, who could not love her songs! Music is always playing or I am always signing, just ask my roommates. But they love it, I know they do! Lauren kinda the same way, but there is one difference - she can refrain from signing and I can't. It's just not in me.

Anyway, enough rambling. Soon I am going to put some Christmas music up. It's such a happy time of the year and my favorite time of the year. And don't tell me nothing like it's not even Thanksgiving yet. Don't fret, we haven't decorated the apartment or my house yet. But soon! Hopefully!

http://free-stock-photos.com/holiday/christmas-ornaments-1.html

http://blog.scuolaleonardo.com/2007/10/08/italian-christmas-discover-and-learn-italian-traditions/

In A Funk

I'm not what I would consider a Type A person, I mean I don't mind just going with the flow, but it can get kinda frustrating at times, and in those times I want all the control. ALL OF IT! I also am one with little patience recently, normally I am pretty understanding, don't have a short-temper, and a pushover, but not recently. I am currently in a stage where I want all the control and I have absolutely none it seems, maybe this plays into my patience, or lack there of. Let me list out what I don't know about my life real quick:

- I don't know where I am going to live next year yet. I mean I know where I want to live and I have some time to decide but it's just the fact that I haven't signed a lease anywhere so I don't have concrete plans.

- I don't know if I will get into nursing school. I hope I do, but what if I don't. What am I supposed to do with my life. Nursing is the only career I see my self doing. Do I just wait and apply again in the Spring? If so, what am I supposed to do for a whole semester?

- I don't know where I want to live after I graduate like not a clue. I know I want to stay in NC but where? It's a big state? Hopefully I will be applying to different hospitals and that will lead me in the direction I should go.

- Who am I going to marry? Simply put!

- What church am I supposed to go to in Greenville?

- What campus ministry? VCM and Collide? Just VCM? Just Collide? A different one all together?

As you can see I don't know a lot about what is going to happen in my near future. It is frustrating. And confusing. And annoying. And bothersome. And trying. And tiring. But you know what, that's okay! That's life!

I truly believe everything will work out how it is supposed to be, I just have to wait and watch it unfold before me! This has been kinda hard.

Wait and watch. Wait and watch. Wait and watch. I have to repeat this over and over to myself throughout the day.

Came To My Rescue

This song is AMAZING!!

Catching Up

I think I am just going to be able to update this once a week at the most. Which is going to have to be okay!

- I am officially drowned in school work. It's ridiculous! I have exams every week until Christmas. Minus 2 weeks. Oh my gracious - talk about some stress. I also haven't been doing very well in school. As and Bs don't cut it for intended nursing majors.

- I apply to nursing school starting now! I need to fill out my application but I'm honestly scared to death! For real, no joke! My worst nightmare would be that Lauren got in and I didn't.

- Mrs. Dana has been diagnosed with cancer again! This hurts me and I worry about her and the boys constantly. I can't imagine what they are going through. I ask that whoever reads this to pray for her and the boys. For strength, perseverance, protection, guidance, peace, trust, and most of all comfort that they will rest knowing that God has every piece of her story stitched out just so!

- I need to start exercising again, P90X was a fail! Oh well, I'll just stick to running all the time. I like it better anyway.

- I also need to start eating better, I don't ever cook anymore because I'm always studying it seems. This shall be fixed really soon.

- I am going to go study now... so much fun. One day I will be thankful that I studied as much as I have. At least I hope I will. hah!

:)